Monday, August 20, 2007

Meltdown Central - Again

Someone told me today, maybe I should take this back up. Maybe this is my outlet. So - Let's give it a shot.

My "AHA" moment today was from friend L:

"You can't have faith...and then not believe it is for you..........."

Do you get how fantastic that is? Yes - Faith is there. For me too................

Thursday, June 14, 2007

From a Past Post - But a Fantastic Reminder

Music, like childrens' laughter, is good proof and a reminder to me that the calm I'm looking for is always there...If I remember to look.


HUGE!!

Monday, May 21, 2007

Attempted To Send Via Phone

But was not so successful. To my Pattygal!:

Queen - You're My Best Friend lyrics

Ooo. you make me live
whatever this world can give to me
It's you, you're all I see
Ooo, you make me live now honey
Ooo, you make me live
You're the best friend
that I ever had
I've been with you such a long time
You're my sunshine
And I want you to know
That my feelings are true
I really love you
You're my best friend
Ooo, you make me live
I've been wandering round
But I still come back to you
In rain or shine
You've stood by me girl
I'm happy, happy at home
You're my best friend.
You're the first one
When things turn out bad
You know I'll never be lonely
You're my only one
And I love
The things that you do
You're my best friend
Ooo, you make me live.
I'm happy, happy at home
You're my best friend
You're my best friend
Ooo, you make me live
You, you're my best friend.


Just one of those I can't help but sing to. And my morning DJ seems to be fond of it........

Monday, April 16, 2007

So Amazingly Stupid I Can Barely Blog About It

Our illustrious leader on the shootings at VA Tech:

“The president believes that there is a right for people to bear arms, but that all laws must be followed,” Perino said.

Yeah - That SHOOTING PEOPLE WITH THEM thing was totally unexpected.

It is illegal. Hence, no one would EVER do that!

Thank GOD for you, W! I feel SO much better now. As do, I am sure, the 60 some parents who are suffering about now. F-ER!

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Just A General Feeling Of Pissed

Because things are going against the flow.

Because things seem to be working out for the opponent.

Because it doesn't SEEM that things are working out for me.

Because I'm pissed.

I'm mad. I'm angry. And that's not me. I don't get pissed/mad/angry/vendictive/bitchy/lashing out. But I am.

Maybe I'll win. Maybe I'll be better off. OK - STOP with the maybe's. I WILL win. I'll be better of. Fuck them. Fuck them all.

I need a little of LT's EEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR about now! EEEEEERRRR!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

I Wish You Sleep

I got this wish tonight from my best pal in the whole world, Pattygal. "I Wish You Sleep." It was almost like a blessing or a prayer.

Chances are you don't get it. And you should thank God for that.

Chances are you are not an insomniac.

Chances are you don't get the screen savers that are almost sleep that race through your mind. And how one itsy bitsy noise can be like a thumb on a space bar to stop the screen saver.

Chances are that you don't pray for light in the morning so you can go back to sleep.

Chances are you don't sleep with the light on so you don't wake up to some scary ass dream and not panic in the dark not knowing how to get back to sleep.

Chances are you don't pontificate over picking up that book and it either putting you back to sleep or keeping you awake for hours.

Chances are you haven't taken the TV out of your room so you won't turn it on and wake up for hours. Same with the clock.

Chances are -- You just don't get insomnnia. And if you don't? I cannot explain it. I actually get MAD at people who can nap.

I think I might be a vampire. Sleep is just great somewhere after 5am. But up til then? It is one big crap shoot. I've tried to stop stressing. Tried every over the counter remedy. (They either give you the crazier dreams/screen savers or knock you out the next day.) I've tried prescription. They work GREAT for the 4 hours they're prescribed for. But at 4 hours and 1 minute - I'm right back awake. I've thought of the CR stuff and should probably try it.

Can't the world just adjust to ME? Wake up around 9am? Get to work around 10a? Go home around 7p? Sleep at 1am? THAT I can do! That works for me.

Corporate American does not agree..............

Monday, January 15, 2007

CrazyPants McGee

I came out of dinner at the new Thai place Thursday and made my way through the LA Fitness/ToysRUs waaaaaay too crowded parking lot only to find the cutest, scruffiest little doggy running around like a nut. I called "Puppy! Puppy!" and he came right to me. I saw one guy outside his car, went over, and asked if it was his dog. He said it wasn't but he'd been watching him for about a half hour to make sure he didn't get hit. He'd already gone into the ToysRUs and they'd made an announcement. No one responded. He couldn't take the dog, because he had cats.

So, I scooped Little Guy up, hopped in friend K's car and drove around the parking lot. She went into the LA Fitness, where they made an announcement too. And we left my name and cell number. Found a security guard in a golf cart circling the parking lot and did the same. Then swung back by the ToysRUs to do the same.

K took us to Kroger, where we waited in the car while she got a leash and food. I think took Little Guy home.

I made a posting on Craig's List that night. And worked from home Friday to stay with him in the hope of avoiding further trauma. Friday I went to PetSmart for a crate and toy, to my vet to see if he was microchipped, and then home where I called two animal control facilities, two area hotels (the only residential things nearby), and the local emergency vet. I called Atlanta Pet Rescue (www.atlantapetrescue.org) - A local non-profit, no-kill facility. But they said I had to have him for a minimum of 7 days before they could take him. I scoured local classified ads. Found one that looked like a match - but it was for a little girl. Little Guy was most obviously not a girl. He still had ALL his boy parts.

So - I was going to use the rest of the 3 day weekend to evaluate and attempt crate training over a weekend. I tried to leave Friday evening about 5 for dinner. Put LG in the crate. Walked out on the front porch. And about 15 feet away. Called friend B who could hear him throwing a fit from that distance and over the phone. Dinner didn't happen.

LG loooooved being outside. We walked a minimum of 10 times a day for a minimum of 10 minutes at a time. At least 4 walks were double to triple that time. We played fetch the tennis ball twice Saturday in an attempt to wear his ass out.

Friend B got a baby gate at Target for me (because I was trapped at home with LG). LG scaled the baby gate from the kitchen by the time I had made it to the living room.

He slept with me at night. Curled up right next to me. Woke up each morning once at 530a for a walk/pee/poop. Then went right back to sleep. Then up at 730a for a walk/pee/poop and right back to sleep. And let me sleep until 10ish each day. That part I could live with.

But there's this problem of this thing I have called a job. That they expect me to be at about 9 hours a day including lunch. Friend K said - Well just go home at lunch! Well - Yes. That's a possibility. But what about the 4 hours before and the 4 hours after?

We tried crate training several times a day. Today we made it to 1 hour with not HORRIBLE fits.....Just light (but constant) whimpers. I'm sure my neighbors could hear. Problem again - 1 hour is a long way from 9. Or even 4 for that matter.

After much stress and worrying I called Atlanta Pet Rescue again on Saturday and told them I just couldn't leave him Tuesday. They were hesitant, but said to bring him in for an "evaluation". I've been there several times and seen dogs just as hyper and with much worse behavior problems. But I was still nervous about the "evaluation".

Sunday friend B was kind enough to ask us over for dinner. I think she knew I was about to crack. And I was about to the point of thinking "I'll never be able to go ANYWHERE but PetSmart!" LG was a NUT at her house. Exhibited some of his worst behavior so far! I think B had thought I was exaggerating. But the laps around the furniture, up the stairs, down the stairs, hand biting, face licking, more laps, and constant movement, convinced her otherwise. Made me feel better about my decision.

We had a lot of fun for four days and I was really hoping it would work out. I tried to MAKE it work, but it just wasn't in the cards for us.

This morning when I got out of the shower (which he really wanted to join me for) he was licking, licking, licking the water off my toes. I finally said "Enough - Licky McToe-son!" (Pattygal will get that.)

So today B and I went to Atlanta Pet Rescue around 130p. It is a really good place. The evaluation went well and LG is now there. He'll be up for adoption once he gets neutered and healed.

They named him McGee. I asked why McGee? Girl - Well, we used to have another terrier here that we called CrazyPants McGee. Because he was a CrazyPants. The "CrazyPants" part is an inside joke here. I don't expect people to get it. Me - No! I SOOOOOOO get it! Because he IS CrazyPants McGee!

Here's a picture of CrazyPants. Look for "McGee".

www.atlantapetrescue.org/www_ver2/pet_pages/toy/toy.htm

If you know if anyone in the greater Atlanta area who wants a dog, has a yard, is home most of the time and has a lot of patience? Please pass along his info. He's a great boy and will make someone a great little doggy.

I'm just praying he finds the right people. As I hugged him goodbye, I whispered in his ear (loud enough for the girl to hear) - "Find the RIGHT people! If they don't seem right, be aloof. And maybe do that annoying thing to them where you bite and tug on their pants leg!" She laughed at that and it made me like her.

I made a donation on my way out. If you're looking for a good tax write off and a good place for a donation, give this some thought.

Have a good life CrazyPants. I'm missing you already. I see a 52 acre farm in your future.

Love - Your 4 day Mom

(Just a couple tears. But I'm ok.)